Mr. Got Me Fucked Up/Drowndeep Hula- Updated

It's been quite some time since I have been on here but I had to come back and re-read some posts I wrote because I was thinking about some things. I was on Facebook and saw that Mr. Got Me Fucked Up/Drowndeep Hula got married. I knew he was but I haven't really spoken to him in a while. He'd reached out a little ways back to say hey and that was about it but I was already off him by then. When I knew he was getting married it made me feel a way and I knew that I wouldn't see him again. I didn't post about our last encounter but it was juicy like the previous one. I had stayed the night with him this time and in the morning we got up, showered, did the get ready to go to work thing because that's where he was going and I can't remember where the hell I was going. I was packed and ready to go as was he and I'm asking what time he had to go because I would've waited. He said "Oh...you can go."

*slams on breaks*

Wait...what?

He had completely dismissed me like he left me money on the night table. He saw the look on my face and immediately apologized saying that he didn't mean it like that. Too late. I was already offended. I left. Pissed as fuck.

What had happened later on after a few weeks was that I had found out that he was in NYC and didn't hit me up. It didn't have to be about fucking so I let him know that. I had seen him before while he was here and we kicked it out and about in SoHo - so it was kinda like really? So me being me had that conversation with him. Dude, I'm actually pretty fucking cool to hang out with so it was real lame of you to not hit me up because you wanted to go ahead and do that whole engaged and marriage thing. I mean really?

He apologized and said that he agreed and that the next time he was in town we should go get a drink.

Negative.

The fact that I even had to say that shit is the end of everything.

So I fell all the way back feeling like there was really nothing to be said...especially from the "You can go" shit. I reread my last post about him and was reminiscing and shit until I realized a few things along with seeing his wedding pics. I wish him well I suppose. Just makes me feel like he had no regard to how I may have felt about anything is all.

Oh well.